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The Journey to One-derland Continues!

A Health and Fitness Update, but first this needs to be said:

Winter, YOUR FIRED! Pack up and leave now, and don't come back!

Honestly, though, I do love winter. It is great we are getting all this snow for the final weekend of Winterlude and outdoor snow enthusiasts, but even I am so over it this year.

Oh well, on an up note:

My weight is going down (and Indigo, my cat, has gone from fat to fit), and even the apartment has lost some of its denseness! So yay for 2019 being a year about the improvement of our health and fitness! We are well on the way.

The last month has been a bit of a challenge and struggle with the weight and nutrition, and the scale took a hit! But life is about the journey, right? I am sad, I gained 10 pounds, but thankfully I lost 11 lbs. in the last month, so I pretty much broke even. I am appreciative that in the overall picture, my monthly weigh-in numbers were down.

One of the things we often forget is our weight can fluctuate daily, up and down. This is because of the food and liquid weight we ingest, along with the calories and other physiological components intertwined within it all. Normally this fluctuation is within a 3-4 lb. range. Let me remind you, don’t beat yourself up when you see the numbers changing. Just take a breather and do as our GPS systems do, recalculate.

My angels and guides reminded me that If you won’t fight for your health and well-being, who will? They went on to tell me it’s time to make better choices! Yep, time to get off this weight roller coaster, indeed and choose to live life healthier each day forth.

So, I am recalculating and putting into place things to keep me on track and moving forward with getting healthier and fitter. Last time I lost 200 lbs., one of the things I did was create a success journal where I asked myself a series of questions daily so that I could gain insight, heal and shift as required. So I am pulling this out and starting to work with it again.

Good news is I am also working on tailoring the success journal to go with my upcoming book, The Cottage Cheese Effect! This is the book many have been “weighting” for. In fact, it isn’t just one book, it is actually an entire program and a series of books to help your health and fitness game plan! So stay tuned as this will indeed be a life changer for many! It is for me already, and I am still writing it!

This month was a struggle also in other ways as an old leg injury resurfaced as a part of the restructuring of the body and to help express the old energies outwardly, so I am free of this reoccurring issue. One of the things I learned over the last couple of months is that this leg issue is tied to my childhood, and the grief I experienced in a variety of manners.

Out of the deep crevices of my cells, insight came to my conscious awareness that I held a lot of pain in the legs, including rejection, feelings I wasn’t lovable or worth anything, and the fear of rejection, among others.

You see as I child, I internalized a lot of stuff, and all this led to a layer of protection (fat), and the health issues surfacing over the years (a hernia, reoccurring leg injuries, gallstones/gallbladder rupture, pancreatitis, and more). Subconsciously my inner child tied what was happening in my life to my self-worth, and feelings of love. Now, being on my path I know that my self-worth and love has nothing to do with anything outside of me. It comes from within.

The child in me didn’t know better and didn’t realize reaching out and talking about his feelings was okay. In fact, many people in my life, only made the child within feel insecure, unsupported and believe that silence was the way to be accepted. What does a child do when he has lost his voice? Act out in other ways!

It makes sense to the human mind when we start to connect the dots and become aware of how our emotions and state of mind play a more significant role than we may be aware of. When we start to track back into our stories, we can begin to see how specific life experiences are tied to issues in unexpected ways.

By reaching deep and connecting to the child within us, we can begin to heal and be enlightened about what our bodies are hiding in the internal crevices of our being. After all, the child just wants to be seen, heard, and loved. The child needs to feel accepted, appreciated and supported; it needs to feel secure to be able to move forth.

Today, I make the promise to my inner child to take the time to connect, listen and hear what you have to share with me. I make the promise to help you feel safe, secure, loved and supported all the days of our lives. Please forgive me for not being there or even knowing you were in pain at times throughout this earthly journey. Please know I am genuinely sorry. I love you. I accept and appreciate you. We are in this together, and together we shall rise out of the ashes of the storm and rebuild our healthy body, mind, spirit and emotions with LOVE!

In fact, because we are all one. I make these same promises to the inner child within all of creation. Together, we shall stand up, rise and repair the ruptured relationship within ourselves and the world around us. This I promise you. One day, one step and one moment at a time! There is no rush here, we shall relax and enjoy the journey knowing we have already reached our goals within the crevices of our mind and heart!

The month wasn’t all bad though. I did have success with fitting into clothes which I wasn't able to for some time, so that is a win for me as well. While not perfect my eating is continuing to improve. I also got a haircut after letting it grow to change things up and then realizing there was a connection to grief and my mom again. I even went so far to get a new facial look and shaved off the goatee (for the time being anyway). I am now rocking a soul patch with a mustache. Who knows how long this will last as I have had the goatee for the better part of 32 years. Change is good!

For some of us, change can seem scary and cause us great anxiety or fears to surface. However, this comes from internal programming and beliefs that often have nothing to do with change. So know that you are safe to allow changes in your life, and to flow with the changes knowing they are for the better at the end of the day. I promise you that!

I am sure there are other successes I am not remembering at this moment, but that's okay as there is many more under the surface of the skin happening. So let me remind you ever little step you take will yield great dividends, so start where you are and take one little step. Begin mastering that, and you will be taking more steps towards your goals. I know you can do it; i believe in you!

I hope you enjoyed this month post, and I will post another update around March 10th. In the meantime, I am so excited to see the unfolding of this month knowing I am on path and purpose with the goal of improving the overall health, wellness and fitness of all aspects of my life. I am strong enough, brave enough and courageous enough to walk the path ahead. I know I am surrounded by all of my heavenly support crew and all of you.

Keep the faith that you will reach your goals, and just keep recalculating as need be. Surrender to the journey knowing that as you do, your internal GPS will lead you along the path of your soul.

I love each and every one of you and thank you for being here. I thank you for your continued prayers, love, light, support, and healing energy. Life is incredible, and I love that you are all here!


Brian D. Calhoun

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